A New Hope

It is amazing that I still have people that really believe in me. I say this because ii have a hard time grasping the fact that there are real people out there who can see that there is some good left in me. To be truthful. I am a good person. I have done some things that i am ashamed of and that I wish I could take back, but I know if I am to ever live again I will have a long hard road. I was going to abandond this blog but after reading so of the comments I have decided to continue to share with you the thoughts that go through my mind. I am very sorry for the hurt that I have caused aand wish it never happened, but it did and now I have to figure out how to get past all of this. I will go into rehab and pray that I can figure this out. Iwant to be able to live without the struggle of using. For all of you that still support me, THANK YOU. We can get through this and I will fight for a change in my life.

The Truth About Isaac

No great quotes to start this out. No good mornings or the likes, just the facts. I have allow my addiction to dictate my life once again and in the process, hurt the people how gave me a chance. The only thing about that is, I never really believed in myself. As I sit here trying to figure out what to do next, I still don't know or believe that I can ever get better. Please dont say that you understand, because you have no clue how being addicted to crack is. You have all met me on some level, but if you were to see me when I was using...I can't even predict what I would do. I am a lowlife. A lier, a thief, a crackhead, and anything else you want to add to the ever growing pot. I want to say that I am sorry, and I really am, but I know it wont do. I can die right now. Thats how I feel. I do want better, I just don't know how. With all the people that loved me, i now have more who hate me. I will try to get better, i hope, and correct this. i love u all