What If...

To live with the conscious knowledge of the shadow of uncertainty, with the knowledge that disaster or tragedy could strike at any time; to be afraid and to know and acknowledge your fear, and still to live creatively and with unstinting love: that is to live with grace. -Peter Henry Abrahams


What if my life had gone in a different direction? Would I be in the position that I am in now? Would I have all the great friends and support I brag about? Who knows. what I do know is that I couldn't and wouldn't change how I got to where I am. Sounds weird I know, nut think of it this way... if I hadn't gone through what I did I could not have goten to where I am. I struggle everyday with my addiction and the troubles that presents itself. What I've been told is that I have to start focusing on myself and all the positive things that has happened. Like the fact that I am going to run a half marathon in 18 days! I'm training for a marathon in May!!! Now how many people can say that? I'll tell you, 2% of the entire world!!!! That is amazing. Do I have my down moments? Yes. I suffer from depression and it will always be around, I just have to find out how to deal with it in a productive way.

So, on to what I plan on for the rest of my week. I have 17 days clean today!! Thats big for me after 17+ years of denial. I will continue to go to meetings and take all your advice. I am looking to be moving soon enough. Sometimes I don't feel like it will get here fast enough, but I am trying to handle this. I need to get in more running I guess. It's funny, before I would want to drink and now I want to run! One ad habit for a good one...lol I haven't updated my music. I need some suggestions. You can hear the music I enjoy and I am always up for new music. So your assignment for the next couple of days is to help me select some music for the blog.

I know I have said this before but, I really appriciate all of you for following. Without you alll I would have no job!...lol No really, I enjoy your company if only for a little while. Until next time....Peace and Love.

Isaac