Tuesday, February 24, 2009

What If...

To live with the conscious knowledge of the shadow of uncertainty, with the knowledge that disaster or tragedy could strike at any time; to be afraid and to know and acknowledge your fear, and still to live creatively and with unstinting love: that is to live with grace. -Peter Henry Abrahams

What if my life had gone in a different direction? Would I be in the position that I am in now? Would I have all the great friends and support I brag about? Who knows. what I do know is that I couldn't and wouldn't change how I got to where I am. Sounds weird I know, nut think of it this way... if I hadn't gone through what I did I could not have goten to where I am. I struggle everyday with my addiction and the troubles that presents itself. What I've been told is that I have to start focusing on myself and all the positive things that has happened. Like the fact that I am going to run a half marathon in 18 days! I'm training for a marathon in May!!! Now how many people can say that? I'll tell you, 2% of the entire world!!!! That is amazing. Do I have my down moments? Yes. I suffer from depression and it will always be around, I just have to find out how to deal with it in a productive way.

So, on to what I plan on for the rest of my week. I have 17 days clean today!! Thats big for me after 17+ years of denial. I will continue to go to meetings and take all your advice. I am looking to be moving soon enough. Sometimes I don't feel like it will get here fast enough, but I am trying to handle this. I need to get in more running I guess. It's funny, before I would want to drink and now I want to run! One ad habit for a good one...lol I haven't updated my music. I need some suggestions. You can hear the music I enjoy and I am always up for new music. So your assignment for the next couple of days is to help me select some music for the blog.

I know I have said this before but, I really appriciate all of you for following. Without you alll I would have no job!...lol No really, I enjoy your company if only for a little while. Until next time....Peace and Love.



Denise said...

17 days!! Congrats!!

I'm terrible with music suggestions, sorry!! I talk too much so I enjoy running with people. I'm sure I drive everyone nuts.

Are you running NJ marathon?

Johnny_G said...

Isaac -

Congrats. on your 17 Day!

Two songs that are "must-haves" on my Ipod for running...

(Victory - Notorious B.I.G.)

(I can only Imagine - Mercy Me)

Hope these help!



Denise said...

I just read the profile story in the Feb issue of Liberty Sports.

Issac, you're doing amazing!! Keep up the good work. You are such an inspiration.

debm said...

Some albums to check out: Phil Roy's The Great Longing, McYogi's Elephant Power, Shelby Lynne's Suit Yourself, Jack Johnson's In Between Dreams, and Jonathan Elias' The Prayer Cycle. Holding a good thought...keep the faith!